IC Contact - New

[thecrowingtobe]

[If it gets past the 4th ring and he doesn't pick up it will go to answering machine.]

This is Claudio. Leave a message and I'll get back to you if I can.

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[thecrowingtobe]

[the venting was good, and the grounding arm around his shoulders helped, a lot. Hell, he hadn't disappeared yet, which is generally the best way for him to deal with anything. Drop off, sneak out, drink some beer in a dark corner of a bar and hope no one bothers him.]

[Seriously, best boyfriend, even if this conversation made him feel extremely guilty because one? You don't fuck with the memory of those you love. Two? You don't fuck with memory, at all. It's messed up and he doesn't LIKE This power. At all.]

[He leaned a bit, into the arm around his shoulders, his free hand pressing into his face harder.]

invisible, sure, that's fine. Intangible is great. Couldn't I have stayed with that? Then I got some fucking raising of the dead in day one and didn't even know it. I can throw a fucking car with a push of a hand. I keep getting these images... of my future, and I got a fucking Ghost father nattering at me over everything. Now I can be the worst of fucking people and rewrite your memory? Did you know I can block bullets now too? Some green glow and bam, fling a bullet off somewhere else.

This fucked up powers game isn't ending and I hate it, Terry. I fucking hate it. [and he sounds the most miserable at this last part] And this? This new shit? Makes me hate it even more. Just let me fucking be normal and I'd die happy.

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[mademyhell]

[Well. Officially in a land Terry knows all too well. Really too well. It's probably good Claudio can't see him right at the moment because he knows he doesn't counter the stricken look fast enough, and can't quite get back to normal or something approaching it fast enough. Sometimes, he remembers how alike they can be, and sometimes, that just fucking hurts.

He wouldn't wish the way he feels on anybody.]

My mom's in a mental hospital. Because of me. [It's out before he really knows he's said it, and he knows, with as close as they are, Claudio can probably feel him tense up. But now that he's started, he keeps going because he knows how this feels. These kinds of fuck ups, they always happen to the people you're close to. Like when he attacked Jinx. Like with mom. Hell, when the powers went batshit, he'd attacked Claudio, too. So yeah. He knew.] We...We were fighting. Over something stupid. Lost control. Showed her what she was-.....woke up, and she wouldn't stop screaming.

[His voice cracks, and he stops, because, that's not the point. That's not the fucking point. It's not about a fucking pity party. He doesn't deserve it. Facts. Continue. Right. He sounds a little less stable as he goes on, though he does recover.]

What I've got? It's dangerous. It can- There's nothing good in this. And if I can train it, so can you. Now you know it's there, and we just figure it out. Like you'd train anything else.

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[thecrowingtobe]

[He had a lot rattling around in his head. Guilt mostly. Annoyance at his powers. At the problems they cause. At the fact that he seemed insane because of them and what the hell did it mean that he could see his fathers ghost and--]

[And something Trauma said caught his attention so hard that he went blank, blinking over at Trauma. Well... now he understood why Terry reacted so strongly to him calling himself insane. He blinked, silent for a moment, just letting him talk. He sounds unstable, but Claudio could understand. He himself was a mama's boy, so the fact that Trauma had... well... to his mom was heart breaking.]

[And this was something he had never head before as well! He wasn't sure what to say, just stared at him in surprise about it. Sadness.]

[Training though. He was talking about training powers. Claudio shifted, uncomfortable for a moment, but then ave a small barely there nod. He leaned forward, catching the others lips for a chaste but lingering kiss, before drawing back, stepping away a bit, and rubbing the back of his head.]

I'm sorry. About... what's happened with you... and your mom. I'm sorry for fucking with your mind too. [His apologies seemed.... flat to his ears though, after that. He bitched about his powers but out of the two of them he felt his were the better power. After all, Trauma had a great power but it was really... tough too.]

[the fight was out of him now, looking down at nothing.] Just... another thing I need to learn to control. I've got a horrible short temper and a shitty power that needs a lot of control. That's not a good mix. At least you seem to understand self control now.

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[mademyhell]

[Terry hadn't even realized quite how tense he'd gotten, how hard it had been to say all of that, until he'd gotten through it. He just felt awkward and kind of raw, and even though he leaned in to the kiss, he was sort of glad for the space after. People. Still not great with people. (Even if he'd sort of decided that Claudio didn't really count as people in that sense. Still. ) He'd closed his eyes to sort of get a hold of his brain and what the fuck he was doing, and when he opened them, once again realized he'd completely lost any real chance at eye contact for the moment. But that was okay. Claudio was sort of shit at dealing with people, too. Made things easier.]

I said, it's fine. I get it. I'm not-[Liar. Try again.]...mad about that. [Better. And yes, he did completely pretend as if he'd missed the first part of the apology. Just another thing a bit to hard to deal with. Apologizing to him wouldn't fix anything. Trauma's fault, anyway.]

Mine was-[No. Trying for honesty. Let's keep with that.]....is. Pretty bad. So temper's got nothing to do with it. Just have to work at it. It's not going to be perfect, but we should be able to figure out triggers. Shit like that.

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[thecrowingtobe]

[He knew him well enough to know that something that serious would need a bit of space. Or at least... if that was him he'd want space and not someone haning too close. He'd let the other invade space when he wanted to, bu Claudio moved to sit again on the end of the bed, both arms wrapped around one leg, leaning on the knee.]

[Yeah, he was pretty much shit with people and interacting with them. Dealing with them. It is why, in his future, in his proper time line, he's a hermit for ten years. But that is beside the point. And no, he doesn't show off those drawins. He's actually crumpled up a few of them.]

[He let out a deep sigh, letting his shoulders melt a bit and he curled up there, at the edge of the bed, staring at Terry's shoes. He had no idea what to say. He still felt such heavy guilt well up inside him over this. Memories! You don't fuck with memories! It's---Oh, it hit him. He groaned, sliding his hands up over his head tightly.]

Figure out triggers. What starts it. Why? How? I mean I didn't actually THINK I wanted you to do what I wanted, I don't think. But... [another groan] This one... this one maybe we should talk to Jinx and Gabe about. Or, you know, anyone else that might at some point trust me and wont here pretty soon...

[see? He was good.. he wasn't going to poke more at Trauma's confession..... right now. And he hadn't made mention about feeling crazy right now!]

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[mademyhell]

[Despite Terry's personal issues, there was only so long he was able to stand there, before he rolled his eyes and went to drop down next to him. Despite what Claudio seemed to think, Terry was fairly sure they could get this under control. Gabriel wasn't totally useless, and Jinx was another expert on unhelpful powers. Between them he was sure they all had it covered.]

Probably thought you could convince me? I don't know. .....

[And then Terry sighs like the put upon person that he is, and bumps shoulders with Claudio to get his attention.]

I trust you. They will too. Relax. There are worse ways to find this crap out....[There's a pause, and the next part may be a joke. It's hard to tell.] Still going to have to talk about not ever asking why weren't having the conversation about the hunting grounds field trip.