Everything about today seemed to be harder than the last month in general. Every ounce of emotion that came off of both boys had been hard and heavy and it had to have wiped them both out. Still, they continued to talk through it. Tried to work through the emotions and actions in the best way they could.
Which wasn't the best at all, but it was them. It was how they did things.
The worst way possible.
Claudio let Trauma try and talk. The fact that Trauma thought that he had been too much for Claudio at last felt bad too. As if that was something that could ever be.
Claudio said nothing for a moment, just letting Terry have the time or the moment if he needed, to try to get words out. He honestly couldn't figure out how to fix anything. In his mind this entire conversation was a complete mess filled with mixed signals and miscommunications. Yet he wanted to be here.
Pulling himself a bit closer on the bed, he moved to where Trauma was seated, scooting in behind him and... leaned forward. Pressing his forehead to the others back and rested it there. His fingers reached out to hook into belt loops at the back of the others pants, as if to hold onto him a bit with out being too... clingy? Too close? His fingers curled, tightening a moment as he took in a small breath.
"I wont avoid you like that again." He said more firmly now. A promise to the other. He leaned a bit heavier into him, eyes closed and let out a small breath. He could... deal with him not wanting him, but he couldn't deal with not being around him. It had sucked for him and it apparently have been worse for Terry.
He leaned there, eyes closed, not sure what Trauma wanted to get across with what else he was saying. If Claudio wanted to? Wanted to... what? It was terrible. He just wanted to curl his arms around the other, close his eyes, and pretend nothing had happened. It was dumb, he knew that much, but he wished he hadn't of messed up.
It had felt like they had been dating for years now though. He couldn't get past that feelings. Maybe it was just him though. Maybe it was just his mind making up things he wished to see. And maybe... he shouldn't want to wrap himself around Trauma and protect him, especially not when he was the one that hurt him last. "If I wanted what?"
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Which wasn't the best at all, but it was them. It was how they did things.
The worst way possible.
Claudio let Trauma try and talk. The fact that Trauma thought that he had been too much for Claudio at last felt bad too. As if that was something that could ever be.
Claudio said nothing for a moment, just letting Terry have the time or the moment if he needed, to try to get words out. He honestly couldn't figure out how to fix anything. In his mind this entire conversation was a complete mess filled with mixed signals and miscommunications. Yet he wanted to be here.
Pulling himself a bit closer on the bed, he moved to where Trauma was seated, scooting in behind him and... leaned forward. Pressing his forehead to the others back and rested it there. His fingers reached out to hook into belt loops at the back of the others pants, as if to hold onto him a bit with out being too... clingy? Too close? His fingers curled, tightening a moment as he took in a small breath.
"I wont avoid you like that again." He said more firmly now. A promise to the other. He leaned a bit heavier into him, eyes closed and let out a small breath. He could... deal with him not wanting him, but he couldn't deal with not being around him. It had sucked for him and it apparently have been worse for Terry.
He leaned there, eyes closed, not sure what Trauma wanted to get across with what else he was saying. If Claudio wanted to? Wanted to... what? It was terrible. He just wanted to curl his arms around the other, close his eyes, and pretend nothing had happened. It was dumb, he knew that much, but he wished he hadn't of messed up.
It had felt like they had been dating for years now though. He couldn't get past that feelings. Maybe it was just him though. Maybe it was just his mind making up things he wished to see. And maybe... he shouldn't want to wrap himself around Trauma and protect him, especially not when he was the one that hurt him last. "If I wanted what?"