He still looked shocked as the other said that about trust and telling him or even Jinx. That they know. It... it was true, sure, but he had freaked out. Hadn't dealt well with it. Once he knew he felt like a monster. Go figure.
And here he had Trauma on the floor, avoiding him and sitting on the floor like it was the end of their world.
Maybe it was.
He opened his mouth to say something. That he killed someone. That he had hurt someone and that it was his fault and how could he tell Trauma that he lost his temper again and killed someone, and yet felt WORSE about changing Terry's mind because he didn't know how to change it back. That right there made him terrible and he knows it.
The other didn't want him near though, did he. He had moved to stand, then moved to just... kneel near by, but leaving him space. His hand moved to rub at his nose, the blood slowed by now, but he still looked a hot mess for sure.
"Ter..." He said softly, voice cracking a moment as he choked back what felt like tears trying to attack. "Terry... I'm sorry. I am. It wasn't that I.... I didn't mean to... to treat you like that."
He reached a hand out, but stopped. The other wouldn't want him around, or close, let alone touch him. And his hand was bloody anyhow. He drew back more and rubbed at his nose with the other sleeve. "I... panicked. When I realized what happened. HOW i realized what happened... I panicked." And he knows if he was around Terry or even Jinx too long he'd spill the beans. Hell, when Jinx tried talking to him he almost cried it out to her but... not so close to her wedding. No.
"Please... please don't hate me. I'm ..." Sorry, yeah. And he wanted to say more but... but he's so scared the other would really hate him after that.
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And here he had Trauma on the floor, avoiding him and sitting on the floor like it was the end of their world.
Maybe it was.
He opened his mouth to say something. That he killed someone. That he had hurt someone and that it was his fault and how could he tell Trauma that he lost his temper again and killed someone, and yet felt WORSE about changing Terry's mind because he didn't know how to change it back. That right there made him terrible and he knows it.
The other didn't want him near though, did he. He had moved to stand, then moved to just... kneel near by, but leaving him space. His hand moved to rub at his nose, the blood slowed by now, but he still looked a hot mess for sure.
"Ter..." He said softly, voice cracking a moment as he choked back what felt like tears trying to attack. "Terry... I'm sorry. I am. It wasn't that I.... I didn't mean to... to treat you like that."
He reached a hand out, but stopped. The other wouldn't want him around, or close, let alone touch him. And his hand was bloody anyhow. He drew back more and rubbed at his nose with the other sleeve. "I... panicked. When I realized what happened. HOW i realized what happened... I panicked." And he knows if he was around Terry or even Jinx too long he'd spill the beans. Hell, when Jinx tried talking to him he almost cried it out to her but... not so close to her wedding. No.
"Please... please don't hate me. I'm ..." Sorry, yeah. And he wanted to say more but... but he's so scared the other would really hate him after that.